Return to Saturn { Working over time}
4 Comments Published by His Daily Variety on Tuesday, October 30, 2007 at 2:20 PM.
Quick Re-visit
The Saturn return is an astrological phenomenon that occurs in a person's life at approximately 27–30 years of age and again around the age of 58–60, with the third and usually final occurrence around 86-88. The planet Saturn takes approximately 29.5 years to orbit the Sun; when it returns to the exact degree along the ecliptic it occupied at the time of a person's birth this is referred to as their "Saturn Return".
This is why astrologers believe that the thirtieth birthday is such a major rite of passage and is considered by many astrologers to mark the "true beginning" of adulthood, self-evaluation, independence, responsibility, ambition, and full maturation.
I came upon something about myself today, thought I share it!
1:24:43 PM amour.propre: Q
1:24:48 PM amour.propre: I have realized
1:24:51 PM amour.propre: Im nuts
1:24:59 PM sin122001: i just realized that
1:25:04 PM amour.propre: I never really healed from my past
1:25:15 PM amour.propre: lol
1:25:19 PM amour.propre: that I was nuts
1:25:20 PM amour.propre: lol
1:25:21 PM sin122001: which part
1:25:36 PM amour.propre: My father,
1:25:41 PM sin122001: o
1:25:43 PM sin122001: wht about him
1:25:46 PM amour.propre: abusive by my step
1:25:55 PM sin122001: really
1:25:57 PM amour.propre: He was never around
1:26:00 PM amour.propre: never met him
1:26:07 PM amour.propre: my step used to beat me with in an inch of my life
1:26:15 PM sin122001: awwwww
1:26:17 PM amour.propre: I never told my mother will I was 25
1:26:32 PM amour.propre: I held alot of pissed feeling with her
1:26:43 PM amour.propre: I thought being open about it was enough
1:26:45 PM amour.propre: but its not
1:27:19 PM sin122001: have u confronted him
1:27:36 PM amour.propre: No
1:27:39 PM amour.propre: the step
1:27:47 PM amour.propre: he is cracked out and living in SC
1:27:54 PM sin122001: o
1:27:59 PM amour.propre: my father I'd have to find
1:28:05 PM amour.propre: to give an ear full
1:28:05 PM sin122001: ok
1:28:09 PM sin122001: yea
1:28:13 PM amour.propre: but
1:28:19 PM amour.propre: when I met a man
1:28:26 PM amour.propre: I put all of that on them
1:28:31 PM sin122001: ok
1:28:33 PM amour.propre: so I always need them there
1:28:51 PM amour.propre: I need to be validated on the fact that Im loved
1:29:02 PM amour.propre: or that they aren’t leaving
1:29:06 PM amour.propre: and that’s not fair
1:29:10 PM amour.propre: to whomever
1:29:11 PM sin122001: ok, got it
1:29:29 PM amour.propre: well not angry so much
1:29:32 PM amour.propre: just broken
1:29:39 PM amour.propre: I mean crazy
1:29:41 PM amour.propre: Im not
1:29:45 PM amour.propre: just broken
1:30:26 PM sin122001: yeah i know your not crazy
1:30:44 PM amour.propre: lol
1:34:07 PM amour.propre: well thank u
1:34:11 PM sin122001: just troubled
1:34:15 PM sin122001: but then again
1:34:18 PM sin122001: we all are in some way
1:34:18 PM amour.propre: lol
1:34:27 PM amour.propre: glad I realized that
1:34:59 PM sin122001: yeah me 2
1:35:11 PM sin122001: cuz the minute u truely believe ur a wackjob
1:35:15 PM sin122001: u become a wackjob
1:35:19 PM amour.propre: well I better come to terms quick, before I miss
1:35:28 PM amour.propre: out on someone good! LORD I got to get out my own way
I want to be loved to validate the fact that I am loved!
Wow, I can so relate to this on so many levels. My step father and I have never been close. A few days ago, he confirmed that he knows that I think he doesn't love me and or like for that matter. But he said he didn't care. Because if he didn't then he wouldn't do the mediocre duties as a "father" figure that he does now. This feeling of being unloved has crippled me to a point where I go beyond the call of duty to prove that I care or that I love a person. Sometimes the love is returned but most of the time it isn't. I haven't healed mainly because I still seek his approval, his love, equal respect that I have given him all this years. Respect that he doesn't deserve but I gave mostly out of fear because he demanded as being head of the household and the one that is married to my mother. Will I ever heal, I don't know. But I find myself crossing my t(s) and dotting my i(s) with the closet of people in my life. I will never either because unfortunately they don't make neosporin for the soul.
No need for validation, Jared. When you love yourself FIRST everything else falls into place.
Love yourself FIRST.
Namaste.
saturn returns is very necessary... i love this entry.
I agree with Mr. Jones.. Although it is a tiring journey but self love and validation is key to being successfull in any arena in life, especially relationships. I have a philosphy, people don't need to search for better halfs because both parties will be cheated. One whole individual needs a whole individual who is compataple with them. Moving on from your past is a hard thing to do but as long as your steadfast in trying to sift through it and be successful you will be fine! I mean you already are anyway! Love yourself because we do! Me especially